Gagak (Hidup Sampai Mati)

Selamat Jalan

Dia datang menghampiri
Dia datang terlihat membantu
Dia tawarkan yang kau inginkan
Dia baik… Dia baik…

Dia datang meminta
Dia datang mengambil
Dia rebut yang kau punya
Dia… Aku…

Lelaki Penjual Mimpi

Terang musuhmu
Kegelapan musuhmu

Hidup berarti
Mati berarti

Kesenangan ada padamu
Kesedihan ada padamu

Satu tujuan untuk hidup
Satu tujuan untuk mati

Mimpi kau berikan
Mimpi kau terima

Lelaki penjual mimpi
Lelaki penjual …
Lelaki pemimpi …
Penjual mimpi …

Awal kehancuran

25th June 98

Keringat Darah

Terik matahari, mandi uap
Dingin rembulan, mandi embun

Seret daging, banting tulang
Banting tulang, makan hati
Makan hati, minum darah
Minum darah, seret daging

Terik matahari, mandi uap
dingin rembulan, mandi embun

mandi uap, mandi keringat
mandi keringat, mandi darah
keringat uap, keringat darah

untuk orang yang membesarkan aku

July 98

Penelope

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Berjalan sendiri di keheningan malam
Wajah tertutup termakan sutra
Bulan purnama

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Terhenti di tanah lapang
Wajah tertutup termakan malam
Lilin menari melihat bulan

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Menari-nari di keheningan malam
Wajah tertutup bersenandung
Angin bertiup menari

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Tertelan malam, termakan waktu
Wajah tertutup berucap
Bumi bergetar

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Mati terbakar seabad silam
Wajah tertutup berteriak
Binatang gelisah

Wanita muda berjubah hitam
Datang membawa dendam
Wajah tertutup terdiam
Matahari datang melarang

Penelope…

14th Agustus 98

Kura-kura

Selangkah demi langkah
Setapak demi tapak
Berhenti
Leher menggeleng

Geleng kiri, berhenti
Bola hitam menatap tajam
Geleng kanan, berhenti
Bola hitam berjaga-jaga

Selangkah demi langkah
Setapak demi tapak
Berhenti
Leher tegak

Leher pulang
Kaki pulang
Ekor pulang
Hening

Salah langkah

Agustus 98

Kelabu

Diam tak tentu arah
Bayangan terus mengekor
Lari ke satu arah
Bayangan terus mengejar

Kelabu.

Kaki berontak berhenti!!!
Otot berontak berhenti!!!
Saraf berontak berhenti!!!
Tubuh berontak berhenti!!!

Kelabu..

Otak berbisik
Hati berbisik
Sanubari berbisik
Pearasaan berbisik

Kelabu…

Liku-liku hidup

September 99

Mimpi Pepisahan

Kepala berteriak, mata terpejam
Mata melihat, jantung berlari
Paru-paru terbakar, kulit menangis

Bulan masih bermain
Jangrik-jangkrik bernyanyi
Burung hantu melolong
Serigala menangis

Otak melihat
Mimpi terlihat
Kuburan di depan mata
Jiwamu gelisah di dalam

Otak melihat
Mimpi terlihat
Jiwamu berteriak
Orang-orang mengacuhkan

Otak melihat
Mimpi terlihat
Tubuhmu tiba
Tubuhmu tertawa… sinis!!!

Otak berpikir, hati menerima
Jantung berjalan, mata menangis
Sunyi berbisik “jadilah temanku”
Hening, sunyi, senyap, gelap….

Peringatan dari neraka

November 98

Fin “Selamat Jalan”

Dia mulai besar
Dia mulai berani
Dia mulai berpikir
Dia mulai berkata

Dia mulai meminta
Dia mulai mengambil
Dia mulai menarik
Dia mulai mendorong

Dia minta dagingmu
Dia minta hatimu
Dia minta darahmu
Dia minta jiwamu

Aku sudah mengambil
Aku sudah terima
Aku tuanmu

Aku telah bebas
Aku telah bebas
Aku telah bebas

Selamat jalan diriku, ketemu lagi di neraka

31st December 98

Another Time, Another Story

Cupid al Amor’s Story

Little Cupid… Little Cupid…
CuuuuPiiidddd…
((khe…he…he…)

Little Cupid… Little Cupid…
CuuuuPiiidddd…
(khe…he…he…))

There You Are…
((khe…he…he…))
(CuuuPiiiiiiiiiid………khe…he…he…)

Rise of Wings

Mother Cupid had dreams
Mother Cupid think
Mother Cupid had dreams
Mother Cupid cries

Mother Cupid had dreams
Mother Cupid think
Mother Cupid had dreams
Mother Cupid smiles

Mother Cupid talks dreams
Father Cupid listens
Mother Cupid happy
Father Cupid happy

Mother Cupid talks dreams
Father Cupid listens
Mother Cupid sad
Father Cupid sad

D Day

Sky clear, son of lights sleeping
Silent speaking
Mother Cupid on bed
Father Cupid holding hands

Sky clear, son of darkness playing
Voice high
Mother Cupid on bed
Father Cupid holding Baby Cupid

Sky blues, son of darkness stop playing
Voice high
Mother Cupid a sleep
Father Cupid smiles
Baby Cupid cries

Sky blues, son of darkness hiding
Voice low
Mother Cupid a sleep
Father Cupid smiles
Baby Cupid a sleep

Sky cries, Earth cries
Voice low
Mother Cupid a sleep
Father Cupid a sleep
Baby Cupid a sleep

Passing One More to Come

Baby Cupid wake up
Mother Cupid wake up
Father Cupid wake up

Cupid grow One, plays on bed
Cupid now One, funny if you think
Cupid is One

Amor, Father called
Amor, Mother called
Amor, he keep playing

Cupid grow One, smiling every day
Cupid grow One, crying all nights
Cupid grow One

Cupid no Wings

Why am I different, Cupid ask
Why am I different, Cupid think

Mother can fly, why can’t I
Father can fly, why can’t I
Cupids flies, why can’t I

Cupid now sad
Mother looks happy
Father looks happy
Why everybody looks happy

Cupid no wings
Cupid no fly
Cupid now two
Cupid no wings

Mother got wings
Father got wings
Both have wings
Both before two

Cupid no wings
Cupid no fly

Sadness Breaks on Happiness

Cupid now Three
Cupid felt funny
Cupid almost Three
Cupid felt happy

Cupid had wings
Cupid can fly
Cupid had wings
Cupid happy

Mother seems sad
Father seems sad
Cupid now question
Cupid now scared
Cupid sad

Mother tries to happy
Father tries to happy
Cupid now question
Cupid now scared
Cupid sad

Destinies Child

Sky went blues, son of lights stun
Cupid grow three, Cupid still questioned
Cupid now three, Mother talks
Cupid now three, Father talks

Sky went blues, son of lights hide
Cupid surprised
Cupid stop listening
Cupid surprised
Cupid cries

Sky cry, son of lights chickened
Mother cries
Father cries
Cupid tried to be strong

Sky cry, son of lights hide
Mother stop crying
Father stop crying
Cupid made up his mind

Cupid tried to be strong
Cupid made up his mind

Cupid made up his mind

Cupid al Amor

Clouds of darkness came
Son of lights hiding
Son of darkness hiding
Clouds of darkness came

Be brave Cupid al Amor
Be strong Cupid al Amor
Road he crossed, Sky he flied

Destiny called, Destiny came
Destiny drag, Destiny brag

Cupid have tried to fight
Cupid have tried
Cupid have tried to win
Cupid failed

Waltzing back in state of light
Remember his Mother
Remember his Father
Remember his rival
Remember his friends
Waltzing back…

Cupid’s wings stop moving
Cupid’s body stop moving
Cupid’s heart stop beating
Cupid’s went cold

Cupid……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

Resurrection half Happy, half Sad

Goddess songs, singing
Goddess voice, echoing
Goddess singing

Cupid sees, Cupid hears
Cupid watches, Cupid listens

Goddess talked, Cupid heard
Goddess grants, Cupid accept
Goddess asks in “return”, Cupid agree to “return”

Goddess songs, singing
Goddess voice, echoing
Goddess singing

Cupid be ready
Cupid takes arrows
Cupid is ready
Cupid takes bow

Cupid felt happy
Cupid felt sad in sorrow

Goddess is singing……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

Victorious of Wings

Clouds of darkness laughed
Cupid is back
Cupid now ready
Clouds of darkness stunned

Cupid takes arrow
Cupid takes bow
Cupid let go arrows
Cupid screams

Luminaire of lights storms
Clouds of darkness flashed
Luminaire gone
Clouds of darkness gone

Sky clear, son of lights smile
Cupid sees Mother
Cupid sees Father
Cupid smiles

Cupid can’t talk
Cupid can laugh
Tears fall into rains
Cupid burst, Cupid gone

Cupid…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

Cupid’s Love

Mother Cupid had dreams
Father Cupid had dreams

Mother sees Cupid
Father sees Cupid
Cupid hugs
Cupid runs

“Little Cupid… Little Cupid…”
“cuuuupiiidddd….” Mother calls
(khe…he…he…) Cupid replies

“Little Cupid… Little Cupid…”
“cuuuupiiidddd….” Father calls
(khe…he…he…) Cupid replies

“there you are” Mother and Father smiles
(khe…he…he…)
(cuuupiiiiiiiiid……… khe…he…he…) Cupid faded

~ fin ~

December 1994
DBM

Out of the Blue’s

my reflection

At first it’s a fantasy, a little bit more you’ll see reality,
far more in to the deepest is reflection of what YOU are. Join yourself, Join ME, JOIN…

…. Who are YOU???…. What REFLECTION???…. Fantasy???…. Reality???…

JOIN???….

Blessing of GOD

OooAaaa….
BLOOD and FLESH unite
PAINS and HAPPINESS collide

OooAaaa….
FEARS and TEARS dag
REGRET and FORGET dig
DEATH and LIFE dug
….
BLOOD and FLESH unite
PAINS and HAPPINESS collide

OooAaaa….
Who are YOU………?
Where am I……??
Why AM I here…?
Anyone tell ME!!!
….
FEARS and TEARS dag
REGRET and FORGET dig
DEATH and LIFE dug

OooAaaa….
WARM over FEARS
LAUGHING over TEARS
A miracle let it be
A curse let it be
SILENTS….

The Great Blessing... So there is…
1st JUNE 80

Me and Vegie

Never knew I
Never knew would
Never knew “you”

Meat ‘s poisons
“you” medicine
Meat ‘s burst
“you” flush

Never knew I
Never knew would
Never….

Suddenly Me….
25th June 83

WAKE UP CALL

Huah….
Sun ’s coming
Moon ‘s hiding

Huah….
Ears listen, Eyes sees, Body moving
Lungs breathing
Heart pumping
Brain thinking

Huah….
Fresh water indeed, fresh water in need
Foods on table, water joins

Huah….

One day on December
December 84

Death Talks Farewell

Krik…krik…krik…
Grasshopper jumping, Candle‘s lights burning
TWO Bodies turn COLD
Silent covers the air

Krik…krik…krik…
Tears falling, Hearth ‘s crying
“Too soon…. WHY? Too soon WHY….”
Asking no answers…. Yelling no answer….

Krik…krik…krik…
I’ll remember………

Dedicated to mother’s parents

Angel Seen

Tired…. Sleeps…. Wake up….
Sun ‘s sleeping still
Moon ‘s tired will

Sleeps…. Wake up….
A lot of people lay on two beds
Comforts gone, enjoys none

Wake up….
Walks on corridor
Sitting by the bench
Angel’s talking…. sitting by the bench

A day after death’s call
July 85

Dreamer’s Dream

Wannabe…
Wannabe…
Wannabe…

Don’t Wannabe…
Don’t Wannabe…
Don’t Wannabe…

Hoping to be…
Hoping to be…
Hoping to be…

Will I be…
Will I be…
Will I be…

Must be…
Must be…
Must be…

Will be………

Child’s illusion, child’s wish…
24th December 85

Accident 80 to 90

Skinny boy got fever
Skinny boy felt so hot
Blood drops from face
Blood came from nose

Doctors said leave it to GOD
Parents cry deep inside

Skinny boy 20 days past
Skinny boy got his soul back

“demam berdarah” Thanks GOD
August 85

Fat boy jumping playing
Fat boy looks happy
Fat boy jumping
Fat boy fall

Fat boy crying
Fat boy yelling
Fat boy fall

Legs burning
Body yearning
Head explode
Pain subvert

“broken leg” Miseries come and play with
July 87

Brain Gaps

Ugh…
Ugh…

Signal to neurons
Signal to brain cells

What… what… what….
Where… where… where….

I know (just a little bit more)
I really know (just a little bit more)
Oh… please give me a chance (just a little bit more)

Ugh…

Signal to neurons
Signal to brain

A little bit more
80 to 88

Angel Reincarnation

Eyes to eyes (mouth’s talking)
Eyes to eyes (mouth’s closing)

Eyes to face (hearth’s beating)
Eyes to face (angle’s reincarnate)

Eyes to angel’s (mouth’s talking)
Eyes to angel’s (hearth’s beating)
Eyes to angel’s…

Reflection of an angels
25th June 89

Fly… Racing with Angel

Wait up will you…
I’m trying to fly…

Wait up will you…
I’m starting to fly…

Wait up will you…
My wings are hot…

Wait up will you…
Hh…hh… wait me catch my breath…

………..

Hello again, nice to meet you…
What’s your name…?
Can you go faster???
Well I think I can!!!
Hello again, nice to meet you
What’s your name…?

……….

Hope we’ll fly like this forever…
Promise me this will you…?

……….

Hey, lets fly faster….

Catch the flying angel
89 to 90